I'm kind of tired

Of doing the same things all the time...
I don't really know if thats a good thing or a bad thing nor do i care.

My week consists of: monday,wednesday,friday,saturday and sometimes sunday, working.
Tuesdays and thursdays, school all day. wednesday and sundays church.
And any time i have off, like nights,i'm usually doing something.
I'm not complaining that i work too much or anything like that.. because my job isn't really stressful. I'm just on the same schedule all the time and its just annoying sometimes.
I miss the days when i did nothing sometimes. Just wasted the day away by sitting at the house by myself or something. Or even if i was with people just chilling at the house or there house.. just sitting there hanging out. I loved those times.
I, for some reason, have always had this feeling where i'm lonely all the time. I hate it. I want to be able to be at my house for a few nights and just chill and not feel like i'm lonely or that i have to be doing something. I always feel like i'm going to miss out on something...

Just a thought: I feel like i don't have to be labeled that i'm a leader or have to meet certain requirements all the time to be one. I feel like i can be a leader in anything i do.

One thing that someone said to me, quite recently was that it's more important what you do outside of the church then what you do inside of the church.Most of the time, the hurt people aren't going to come to us in the church. We have to get them there... or we don't even HAVE to get them there... but more of how we impact other's lives just through our actions and the way we love people. When they told me that, it really made me think.
What am i doing outside of the church? I mean yeah i live a christian life, im not some drunk on the weekends or anything, ha. But besides living like a christian what else am i doing? Yeah, i love people, but i always wonder if people notice. I always wonder what people think of me when they meet me.Can they see God through me? Do they think that i'm a loving person? Do they think im judgemental? do they think im a good person by the way they see me act and talk? I sure do hope so. I just think it would be cool to go back and like ask all the people that have met me or carried a conversation with me and what they thought of me. I just think it would be interesting. Sometimes it's hard to maintain our loving spirit and all that when something goes wrong, or your having a bad day. What about the people we meet on those days. I wonder what they think of me then? And then think how fast we jump to a conclusion when we meet someone that is probably having a bad day or something like that, we usually just make the assumption that they are a biotch or that they are rude or something.
We are just selfish people and sometime we should be more careful on how we act and talk and deal with things, because we never know whose watching us and we never truely know all the lives we impact everyday.