Yesterday

So yesterday was a good day.

I had class. I went to english. Then i went to eat milos with some people from my class. It was fun, haha. Then i had some extra time so i decided to go up to the church and pray. Haven't done it in a while and so i really wanted too. Well i got to the church and no one was there. I was looking around for a pen at the desk and i found my journal that my pastor Jon got me and all the rest of the interns during the internship. Well i hope no one read it, cause that would kind of be embarassing, oh well. Anyways, so i walked into the sanctuary andi turned on the lights real low..and i wanted to listen to some music. So i turned on everything and when i
turned on the computer itunes was already up and i clicked on it and a song "i'm coming your way" was highlighted. So i put it on repeat and went down to the alter and started praying. I started reading my journal and i started to cry, a lot. I didn't even know what to pray about. So i just kept saying "sorry, im so sorry God."
I got so far away from him it scared me. Now don't go making any assumptions of why i slipped away because it doesn't matter. People do make mistakes no matter how close they are to God.
The devil is tricky and he can get to your head in ways that you wouldn't ever think.
It's scary. But i have learned through recent experiences that it doesn't matter how the devil tries to get to you, to never give in and if you ever "fall" to get back up and run towards God, not away from him.
I realized that not praying really does make everything worse. I also realized that running away from your problems and running away from the people that care about you the most is also going to make things worse for you.


Well there's more i could say, but i'll just keep some things to myself.
Thanks. :)