I feel

so lonely.


Just me and God.

Weekend.

I had the best weekend i have had in a while.
Me, cory, billy, kendall, and cam all went to fairhope, they are hilarious.

Anyways, I just love being down there, i don't know what it is. I love talking to jd. And i love everyone down there, and i miss them so much. I loved seeing tim and ashley simmons. I love them, they are amazing people. Ashley seemed so interested in everything that i said, and what i was doing with my life, it made me really happy. I miss her.I played with kennedy and cole a lot... i miss them too. Kennedy is so cute, we played hand games and she showed me cheers, she is so sweet.
We went to my old youth pastor, tim's live recording. I can't even describe how amazing it is. I love listening and watching tim sing.He's so passionate and deep, i love it. I could sit in that environment forever, just listening to worship.



Saturday, i got to meet Jons family. I loved them so much. All of them were so sweet to me. They made me feel like part of the family. They invited me back for thanksgiving. I didn't have anything to do, because i couldn't go see any of my family, but now i'm just going with jon, which i am really excited about. I love my pastor jon.

At church tonight, kristy prayed with me and she really touched my heart, it was one of the best feeling i have ever had while someone was praying over me. I love her so much. I miss her.

I want to be intimate with God again.

17th bloggg

I have probably broken many promises, and i know people have promised me things and have broken them. It hurts a lot. Well at least for me. Promises have always meant so much to me, for some reason?

God has never broken a promise. He keeps all of his promises. That means so much to me.

I recently made a promise to God that i will NOT break.

From now until september i'm going to be preparing my heart for whatever is to come next, whatever that takes, because my life as well as myself will change. I have never wanted something more, and i have never known that what i'm doing is for sure what God wants me to do and is all in his plan. What happens after all this, i have no idea and for once that does NOT scare me. It's actually a sort of relief. Because i know i will figure out who i am, the real me, and what God wants from me and wants me to do, my purpose. I'm so excited, but nervous at the same time.

I have my eyes and my heart completely set on God and nothing will get in my way, satan will throw things my way to try to screw me up, i'm sure of that. But i won't let it, i won't let it.
All i do is pray.

I am all yours, PLEASE do what you will.
I am ALL yours...